Two Childhood Journal Entries; Proof of becoming a man...

6/06/01

Dear Journal,
   
              Hello, I know it's been a long while, since I've written to you. But I'd just wanted to write to you, saying that starting tomorrow, will be the beginning of what would be the end of my childhood. To say, goodbye 12 years of young life, and hello age 13: The progression to becoming a great man. It's a few journey that I have never embarked on, but now will be something that'll be measured by my achievements, and character. I still must follow my goals, but now I have a new goal to add, and that's to be as Outstanding & Remarkable, to the point, where I would become a legend. Just like Baki Hanma from "Grappler Baki", who trains really hard to become the very best. I just hope that I don't become the meanest brother ever, to other boys who one day will look up to me. For this reason alone, I ask the strength from God, to become that Outstanding person.

06/11/01

Dear Journal, 

       Hello there old friend. Guess what's different about me? Four days ago, I became 13! That means I'm a teenager & I'm working super hard on my goals, a whole more than ever! So far, I've gotten some of my goals together, and I've started hitting the gym more, running more, and staying in total shape, just to start things off! For my birthday, I'd got the "Your Daydreams & Doodles" by Laura Dower & Pablo Torrecilla, to help me map out what kind of dreams in life do I want to accomplish! My childhood daydreams would be having future successes, and being the CEO(Chief Executive Officer) of my own company/studio "Celestial Graphics", but haven't come up with my studio name yet. Being an inspiration to others. Before I go journal, I'd just thought I'd write to you, what are the dreams in life I have: Become a Outstanding Author of two masterpieces, become a Outstanding Singer/Songwriter & own my own Music Studio, and finally to become a Outstanding Artist, and be a father to my own family. One built on warmth, understanding, encouragement, support, and most importantly...love. Take care old friend. I've got more goals to accomplish. 

Let me know what you guys think of my entries. Me, personally, their very precious to me, because this is what my childhood self, from 15 years ago, used to think. And how I can't let myself down still. Personal Branding=True Legacy.

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11/03/00 & 1/13/01 ("Both when I was 12 years old")

Dear Journal, {11/03/00}

Today I get one of those "Hard days", when your locked up in the second dungeon and never came out until you knew it was a good time. But there are times, that I feel too hard on myself because of it. But that's how I release my anger, for about as long as I've known. Is just through going somewhere, picking up a great book that I immerse in. And when I get done, I'd went to fix my late work and finish the rest of my homework. 
Lately I've been having feelings towards a certain show that I liked. Without having a whole lot of reasons unto why I do. But that's when I'd started writing cursive, and my love for writing began ever since. This month is reading month, so I'm going to do a lot of reading. 
Moral: Don't make excuses to not finish your work on time. 


Dear Journal, {1/13/01}

Today and yesterday, was kinda sucky because my peers kept ignoring me, as I was writing. I think a lot of it stems from not being like all the other normal black kids and playing sports and rough-housing. Trying to be so excellent & impress my peers, and become the coolest and most popular guy in my school. I'd felt what better way to prove it, than hitting the gym to gain muscles, and playing with the other kids. This explains an awful lot of why I was the way that I was. This is helping me to explain the core issue and where a lot of insecurities came from. But over all, very goal-oriented, as I wanted to become well-known. 
Moral: It's difficult to just be yourself. 

So as I was reading through my other entries of my childhood journal, two words always came to mind: goal-oriented & accomplishments. If this doesn't sell on the idea that I was an ambitious person, even when I was at the age of 12, I don't know what else. I'll have more entries I'll write in the near future.