The Final Journal Entry of my adolesence years...

This is the final journal entry of my childhood and through my adolescence. This one takes me a back, because this was from the heart. This is the reflection of everything that I've accumulated in my life, and how I still feel today. I'm aware that this seems strange having to reach the final entry, but...the other entries that I've had were filler. But this final journal entry, serves as a reflection in my writing. From the main characters of both my magnum opuses (C.T.W., S.A.W., and Theseus & the Olympian Angels), to all of the literary elements, that make up my whole series. I hope you find pleasure in reading this, as this has been quite a journey for me. Even if this were to be the ending days, which I wouldn't pass me, at least I can look back at who I was, and how I still feel about myself today. With that, I'll post my final Journal Entry and leave away to working screenwriting more.

9/06/2004

Dear Journal,

Hey buddy, long time no see, it’s been days without a real and close friend, to talk to. Pretty soon, I’ll need to get a new one, and start all over. Basically, the whole world continues to mess itself up a lot more than ever, and the alienation towards me in the family continues to grow as well. So yeah, really nothing much else has really changed. My two sisters have now gone off to college, while taking care of my first ever niece, so I guess that makes me an uncle. The only people in the house at this point, outside of me, is my brother, who’s way too into superheroes, and my sister, who's starting to go to Middle School, which that’s a huge change.

As for me, since this is my last and final entry, there’s just a lot of things that I need to work on with myself, and start getting back to becoming the stud and bad ass, that I’d always model myself to be. [G.B.III1] In my path to become a polymath, find me the dream girl, that I’d want to be with, and share an intimate relationship with. One with no alienation, isolation, or callous and uncaring, judgmental, and a relationship with warmth, encouragement, love, and support, and equality. I also felt the need to go back to the gym, weight-lift 3 to 4 times a week, eat a lot more proteins, and gain more lean muscle, and start honing my skill sets, and mastering my craft as well. Wearing Hip Hop, professional type of clothes, and get really nice and shiny dreads, with really nice, then glasses. A complete and total re-imaging of myself, as the one known as “Beckett “Garbo” Baldwin”. I’d even started learning multisyllabic rhymes, internal rhymes, word-play, & metaphors, just to make myself become even more badass, than I’d thought I would ever be.

Why? What else. Anything to make up not being a nobody, and just be all alone, as a complete nobody as well. With the hopes and dreams, of becoming a muscle-bound Authorpreneur/Musicpreneur/Olympian Athlete. Wanting to make great songs, go on tour, and become a great celebrity figure that makes “Artist of the Year” or “Artist of the Decade” as well.

I know this is just WPS Writer, but in my first ever journal, this is the last entry of the journal. I hope one day, I can buy another Garfield type of journal again, but by then, I’ll at least be a somebody in my own type of way. Developing great self-esteem, without needing adulation, attention, or kissing up, to make me truly feel special. Writing into this entry of my journal, I’ll be 17 (which this is the 29 year old self writing this), becoming a mature, responsible, very strong, and attractive male, with versatility in his skills, with multiple books well-written, and becoming instant best sellers as well. And years and years of experience ahead of him. I don’t care if this world doesn’t want to change for the better, that everyone else around has become greedy, immoral, and selfish, and  wants to bash and hate just about everything around them. And eff like rabbits, have a child too early, and have custody battles or just not be a part of that child's life anymore. Or constantly dealing with people who just don't want to understand me. Why? Because as painful things have been, I’m going to keep pushing forward and keep striving and aiming with high ambition, to become the symbol of what I’d always wanted to become. A straight up bad ass black male, who lives an exceptional life, and always searching for ways to grow on a daily basis. Never to conform what is considered to be “normal”.

See you around, until we meet again someday. As for now, this will be my final word to you, before I leave, and it’s a very meaningful and emotional one: Good-bye, my best friend and thank you, for being with me through my adolescence years, as I’d continue to move forward. I’ll make absolute sure, that those three dreams, are accomplished, and that they will not go to waste. Not at all. And if there was ever a time where I'm glad I've listened to my gut and continued tabbing into the literary and film field, it would be in a dire time like this.

Signed with great thanks,

Garland Jones Bennett, III aka. “Becket Baldwin” & “Garbo, The Polymath”

P.S.- "Stories are the equipment for living."- Robert McKee's "Story" (1997)

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 [G.B.III1]Trust me, young one, the feeling is still just as strong, just as potent, and still just as lively inside of me, like you wouldn’t even believe. And believe me, your going to get there, and leave a huge niche in this world.

My thoughts on Feminism...

For the longest time, I'd been wanting to write a topic about strong female characters. This isn't to say that we shouldn't have them, but rather focused on making them more well-versed, well-rounded, and all-around, to make them authentic. Instead of just having kick the guy's ass, and we're all fine with it. Or just outright go neo-feminist nazi type, and just outright have this misandrist perspective, that men and boys are scums of the earth & should be eradicated as well. Leaving only the handsome, broad-shouldered, and muscular to have around as boy toys. To be easily manipulated, so that it's relatively easy, to keep control & never have to worry about being out of control. "Control" seems to be the problem.
Now I'm not saying that women in roles for TV, Film, & Digital or New Media, can't be written very well.Especially for them to say their lines. What I'm saying is, if their not well-versed, well-written, or even have multifaceted aspects going for them, then it's just a personality thing that people can't get behind. Not just the women problem. After seeing  a number of movies that have women and girls in them, the best ones from what I've seen, are the one's with a variety of emotions. And just always trying to punch or kick someone or something. These female characters are resilient, have perseverance,  and know what vulnerability is not a weakness, but an inner strength. An inner strength to still trust, despite having felt hurt, pain, and abuse at one point of a person's life. Inner strength is something of which I can't stress that enough times. Because it needs to be talked about more.
I'm going to use one of my magnum opuses, as an example. The first one being "C.T.W." Where you have two of the "Four Noble Animal Leaders" who are women and females. Both are strong, but not just physically, but personality, mentally, and spiritually. Their fierce, lethal, but know their limitations as females, but don't feel very ashamed about it. They even have a second-in-command or right hand man, that's a woman as well. Even when they'd fought against each other, there was deep motivation, deep emotions, and the fight was intense because of it. There was that strong will to protect things that were precious to them. Even when the Ken Slayers were attacking them, instead of just submitting and letting them do as they'd please, they'd fought back tooth-and-nail. They've thrown down agains them. Letting them know, that they don't run the show around here. And despite being overpowered, they'd still kept their strong will intact. Still being proud of being a Hugertar or a Coco member or elite. And the fact that they've forgave the Ken Slayers, for what they've did to them, while not letting them off the hook, shows again the inner strength that they have, to forgive.
       Now, diving into Volume#1 and beyond, completely negating the short story, you'd still see Minerva, Diana, Vesta, and Ariel. All of which are strong female characters in their own right. And all of them play their role to contribute well into the storyline. Including Vesta, as has it not been for her, none of them would've found each other. And that's three main female characters, in one particular series, along with a main supporting character. It certainly beats out the Bethel Test, where of course there are two or more female characters, and they don't just talk about a guy that they like. Even in Ed's Journey, we'd got Anna, Flora, and Artume who are the main female characters in the Trilogy.
And for the villain's side of the first magnum opus, you've got Abagail, Kore, Helena, and Milena. You've got them as part of this deadly terrorist organization, and even though not each of them are stronger than the other, they all have special skill sets, that makes them deadly. Even the final villain in the series, is a draconically transformed woman, much like Irene Bielgseen from Fairy Tail, who's like "Tia-mat"; Queen of all of the Dragons. The one who's been pulling the strings from all around, and things were getting intense, because of it.
And then there's my other magnum opus, "Saintly/Angelic Warriors", which outside of the prologue, you've got Amelia, Tiana or Tiara, Aria, and Jezebel. Again, the combination of three main female characters & one main supporting character too. Jezebel goes on to train very hard, and becomes someone of high rank. Amelia gets character development, Tiara does as well, and Aria through time will too. And once again, just like in C.T.W, the final villain is the mysterious woman, who claims the name Tiamat. But in contrast to C.T.W, where she wasn't mentioned until Volume#2, she's mentioned the first volume, that comes to mind.
So there you have it, I'm all for having strong female character left and right. But only when they have a wonderful personality, likeable traits, and abilities that fit the nature of their name, background, and character. Other than that, as long as this world continues to make ridiculous news, where they think women aren't getting so much attention, that's debunked because for the past few years, have been a shift of such.

Update

Just to give a quick update, since I know I've been gone for a minute, I won't be working on the final volume of the "Celestia/Terrestrial Warriors" series, since I've been on it since '07 and republished the first volume in April of '11. It's been one helluva of a ride working through this, and I'd want to thank anyone, who took time out of their day, to read just a bit of what I've had to offer. The final volume that I've had planned, won't be out until either April or August of '22. Assuming the world doesn't blow itself up by now. Or that a massive civil war happens, that causes the worse riots that you'll ever see out there.
Until then, I'm going to work on the Graphic Novel or Graphic Literature version of my work. Just so that I can improve the quality of my work. Until then, take care and look forward for more in the near future.