Being Human...

Today, I'd felt like sharing something that's personal to me. Something to remind me, that I'm human & I'm different from others. So I won't spend too much diving into it, so I'll just go ahead and get to it. I love  the sound of Showers & Thundershowers, but I absolutely fear/hate Thunderstorms! Especially the Heavy Thunderstorms, that make those super crackling sound as well, and produces hail & tornadoes. When one happens, my highest priority is to stay away from a window immediately, so that the flashes doesn't make it worse. Because of this, I've called a sissy, a wuss, and girly-man, because of being afraid of something, that can kill me...if I were outside. And to me, it goes to show what they know about me. 
I'm born with sensitive hearing. Therefore, noises are amplified with me more than the normal person, and my heart jumps 10x faster than normal people. So because of it, I'm a light sleeper, and I pick up hearing things even while I sleep very clearly. And again, if this makes me such a girly-man, a wuss, and a total pansy for admitting that they do tend to scare me, even when my body picks up on this, then by means, go right ahead. At this point, I don't care anymore, because I'm willing to admit that I have a fear that I still battle to this day. And while I do admit, that it's not as extreme as a phobia, where I'm having uncontrollable, irrational fear and losing my mind, literally, it's still one of those, I have to listen to music to help me soothe through the storm. So that it doesn't send me into a comatose state, because of the big loud noise, that tears through my eardrum. I know there are plenty of those, who find it amazing and bash those who aren't the same, but that doesn't promote empathy of any kind. 
As far as I'm concerned, this is probably something that I know won't fully go away. But at least, if I can make sure that I always stay calm in these situations and never go it paranoia, then I'll still consider it self-improvement. Just felt like sharing it, because blogs really do act a wonderful journal. 

Sincerely, 

Beckett Baldwin

P.S.-No, I don't need psychiatric help, for something that's not an extreme problem, and already found a way to keep calm. Because being calm in these situations, always is the most important to me, over everything else.